Confidence

I am floundering a bit in the confidence area. I know how to be forceful, I know how to maintain control but no one else has this same confidence in me. I feel like every time I start something I have people sitting in the background talking about the things I am not doing or the things they think I should be doing and then I feel surrounded because I am trying to show that I am strong enough and capable enough to be in charge while battling back the uncertainty that the people I am suppose to be in charge of or working with do not trust me or my judgement.

I use to have confidence I use to feel in charge like I could always handle anything. Where did it go? Why do I constantly let my fears of not pleasing everyone or not being liked get in the way? I need to put my foot down from now on show that I have the confidence to keep things going to show I am smart enough.

I am floundering and I need to pull myself back up to the top.